so we have to start slow and be consistent…that’s today’s brick that hit me in the head.
Sometimes we’ll talk with friends about something about us and it won’t fully hit us…but then when we talk about the same thing, but about someone else, and it’s like getting hit in the head with a brick because we realize what we’re talking about is us, ourselves.
This happened to me this morning. It was a conversation about marathon running and how when we go out to fast we can’t maintain pace and we end up not being able to meet our goals because we lose steam in the end.
I have a bad habit of doing that in my races, I go out way to fast, get so far, get tired, drag butt to the end, and do worse than a negative split. I always get told, start slow, and be consistent. That’s something that really hasn’t set well in my head. I like to go fast, and I pay for it.
It’s something that’s not just a trend in my races, but in regular life too. Last week I was talking with a friend and she said “you get all gung ho, and then you burn out”. That comment was heard, I maybe even said “I know” and that’s as much thought as was put into it.
But then this morning…talking to another friend, about a different friend, in a similar conversation, I went “OMG, I just had this same convo with friend x and it was about me”.
Far too often, in so much that I do, I get told, it’s not a sprint, it’s a marathon. I know the difference, I’ve run sprints, and I’ve run a marathon. I have a personality that says “I want it now” and I’ll admit, if I can’t have it now, I often don’t head towards it, I change directions and head for something I can obtain quickly…we’ll call it instant gratification.
A highlight of this happening, when I attempt to get back on track with the mess I’ve made of my diabetes, when it doesn’t immediately behave the way I think it should, I lose hope, get angry and quit. When I’m on track and something throws it off, like last week when I was so high that the meter read HIGH for 5 hours and then I spent 4 days in the 350s and was taking ungodly amounts of insulin, I lose hope and get angry (didn’t quit) but wanted to give up.
An example of going out to fast and then burning out is me saying, ok, I’m going to take care of myself and then I decide I’m going to check my blood 8-10 times a day, take insulin, count my carbs with precision, and log all my numbers. I burn out so quickly when I do that, and then I quit.
When I sprint, I rarely reach my destination, because almost nothing in life is a sprint, it’s all a marathon, it’s all something that we need to take the time to get to, we need to start slow, be consistent in what we’re doing, build ourselves up, and then perservere and not give up. We can’t quit and we can’t take shortcuts because we’re just not going to get where we’re headed if we do it that way. We can’t go in all head first and expect things to work out as though we’ve been at it for years and years. When we run into an obstacle (when we hit a “wall” for all the runners reading this) we have to remember our end goal, push aside the negative thoughts in our mind, and press on. Those obstacles/challenges are stepping stones, they exist to make us stronger, help us push harder and farther; we can’t do what so often I do, and that’s see the obstacle and turn hind tail and run the other direction towards something different, better, easier.
This isn’t something new to me, it’s something that’s always been known…I’ve just never really taken the time to think about it or apply it. I guess I’m now in a better, more open place to receive things and they’re starting to hit me in a way they never did before…I’m gaining revelations to accompany my knowledge