At a recent doctor’s visit there was a decent sized conversation about how I really need to be checking my blood even when I’m pissed and my blood sugars are high and there’s no desire to check. (I mean, come on, if I know I’m high, why should I check…no one wants to see a high number *said sarcastically while rolling eyes*)
Blood checking has been a recent problem for me. Anger towards diabetes has been a recent problem for me. There was a conversation about rerouting that anger in a direction that wasn’t going to destroy my body down the road, like cycling or running or kick boxing, all things I do…I told my doctor that’s all fine and dandy until I get pissed off at diabetes at the end of my activity because I’m low and whatever anger I vented is back.
She said this is where checking my blood and keeping track of my numbers will greatly help me. I already knew this. I hate tracking my numbers, paying attention to my numbers, having my numbers bother me for any amount of time past me taking a shot and eating…tracking numbers is not enjoyable. I’ve tried over and over and over again to log, but it gets boring…and a million other problems are associated with it…like making me neurotic and causing the clock to run my life and…and…and…other stuff i can’t seem to think of right now…it’s just a royal pain in the butt…i think that sums up logging.
But I’m doing it…or, I’ve started doing it; and I’m going to reward myself for doing it. Rewards are important and sadly having happy numbers and a happy A1c isn’t enough reward for me…mostly because the work it takes to get to that point isn’t instantly rewarding…like, I’ll be rewarded down the road in the future by my eyes still working and not having neuropathy or my kidneys still working…I like instant rewards…
So, I’m starting with 2 weeks. If I keep my log for 2 weeks (14 whole days) and if I can successfully do that, I’m rewarding myself with something small that I’ve wanted for a while now.
A Cage Rocket!
I hate being a pack horse when it comes to my stuff…especially the stuff required for diabetes care while I’m out riding and the Cage Rocket excites me because it can hold a whole slew of stuff.
So, 2 weeks of logging will equal a Cage Rocket. I know I can just go buy this now, I know I can buy it if I don’t do my logging, but I’m going to try and hold myself accountable and not get this toy that I want until I’ve successfully logged two weeks in a row…
Hold me to it, ask questions, ask for pictures even…one day, hopefully sooner rather than later, I’ll have 14 days in a row of logging.