The work is the problem. But it makes sense…Maya Angelou said it “Nothing Will Work Unless You Do”.
This morning as I was pondering my doctor’s appointment and my problems and how a problem well-stated is a problem half-solved I was pondering the rest of the solution to my problems.
The remainder of the solution is work. I have to work at things and that’s a miserable thought. I don’t want to have to work at being healthy…it shouldn’t have to be work…sadly it is…and currently I’m not working…neither is the diabetes. We’re in a sense destroying each other…well, no, that’s not true either, it’s destroying me because I’m not working for it.
So, I’m sitting there, looking at my doctor (after I’ve told her about my stomach issues and how I let go of my care in December due to me not being able to handle more than one big issue in my diabetic life) and she asks “so, what can I do for you?”
And I look at her and say “there’s really nothing you can do at this time. I know what I have to do, I have to work at this and you can’t do the work for me.”
She said, “no, I can’t do it for you.”
We talked about how my stomach problems, which if it truly is gastroparesis is directly related to diabetes and how tighter control is going to help it. We talked about how most the problems I have are directly related to my blood sugars.
What it all really comes down to is me working on my blood sugars. The saying becomes true at this point: nothing will work unless I do. If I don’t work, I’m going down the worst road possible for the working condition of my body.