I often feel that diabetes has me trapped. It’s everywhere I go, it never leaves me, no matter how much I fight it, it won’t set me free. It’s like being in a jail cell (no, I’ve never been in one, but I did try to get into one for a school project, they wouldn’t let me in without committing a crime. But I do know what it’s like to be caged up) what you’ve got is what you’ve got, end of story. Every now and then you might be able to move to a different cell and it might be a better cell, but you’re still in jail. That’s me and my diabetes and the new technologies that come out. The diabetes is always with me, but sometimes the care gets better.
I also feel trapped sometimes in the sense that I feel it prevents me from doing things. I know that this feeling is mostly built on everything that happened to me as a child with diabetes in the early 90s. Where things were taken away because I had diabetes and I was told "no, you can’t do that because of your diabetes". It’s something that I often fight. And it’s a hard thing for me to overcome, it’s the thinking that’s been in my head for so long.
Yes, I’d like to be free from diabetes, I’d like to be released from it’s grasp as so many others would as well, but right now, it has me trapped.