C is for Courtney

Court·ney [kohrt-nee]
   -Undefinable

Yes, I just said that I’m undefinable. You can describe me though (and I’m hoping that to define and to describe aren’t the same thing, the english language is so confusing to me. To me, define is like being able to put something in a box, but I’m not a put in the box kind of person, I’m a fight to get out of the box kind of person, so define isn’t a good word for me).

There are a lot of C words that describe me. Creative, Curious, Courageous, Charismatic.

I’m creative to a point where I blow my mother away with some of the things that I come up with. I see things in my head that I can’t always express with words, and often times, drawing/painting/sculpting them doesn’t do what’s in my head enough justice. It’s painful sometimes how creative I am in my brain, because I’m unable to convey what I see to other people, they just don’t seem to get it and it kills me because the things I see in my head, are cool (to me at a minimum).

I’m curious to a point where I’m grateful that I’m not a cat or I would’ve gotten killed by now, or maybe I am a cat in human form and I’ve got 9 lives, by my count, if I have 9 lives, I’ve gone through about 4 of them so far. My being curious, if I had to speculate is what helped me go down a 30 ft water fall. I got too close to the edge (I was in the water to begin with) I slipped on a rock and down the falls I went. (Ok, maybe I’ve gone through 5 of the cats 9 lives.)

I’m courageous, of course, most the things I think take courage, most people consider crazy, like jumping off roofs onto trampolines and skydiving. I’m sure I do other not so crazy courageous things to, because when I was a child and we had to find words that matched the letters of our names that described us, courageous is a word that would come up.

char·is·mat·ic [kar-iz-mat-ik]
   –adjective
   possessing an extraordinary ability to attract; “a magnetic personality”

Charismatic, yes, I attract people to me like honey attracts bees (but bees make the honey so does that really make sense?), but I can’t say why. I don’t know what it is about me. When I first meet people, I kindof like to stay on the outskirts to watch them (yes, I’m a people watcher) I like to see them in their environment get to know them a little before I get to know them type of deal, but then after a while, when I feel comfortable around them, I’ll be myself. I’m highly energetic, I like to be on the run, I’m one of those people that will run myself into the ground before I stop to slow down (coincidentally, if you’re with me, you’ll get run into the ground too). But the other side of me is that I’m quiet, I like to read, I like to listen to music, I love to watch movies, I want to learn to play the piano (and I’ll stick to the classics, like Beethoven, Bach, and Mozart). Sometimes I’m really easy going, like, whatever, and other times, I’m like, let’s go, I wanna do this and I wanna do that. I’m fun loving, I’m easy to get along with, I’m half way accommodating, I’m a caring person (when I’m running you into the ground I’ll ask if you’re ok), I’m a good listener (but I’m also a talker, just like my dad).

I love the outdoors, if I could go live in a cabin in a forest all by myself, I’d be elated. I love to be surrounded by nature, the idea of trees, big tall trees, and a creek just really puts a smile on my face. There’s really nothing about the outdoors that I don’t like (unless it was me as a kid and mom telling me to go pull weeds, I’m not too fond of that, even if I will get a suntan while doing it). I love outdoorsy activities, camping, hiking, biking (both mountain and road), the water sports like speed boating, seadooing, water skiing, knee boarding; fishing, I’d love to just go out and sit in a boat and fish all day long in a small lake, that’d be really cool; white water rafting. There’s so many outdoorsy activities that I’d love to do (I guess that goes with my adventurousness) kayaking, skiing, snowboarding, rock climbing, surfing, paragliding, wind surfing, snorkeling, deep sea scuba diving (although, I will say that for as much as I love the water, I believe that I’m a live in the mountains visit the beach kind of person).

I love art. The art I create may not be much better than what a parent would hang on the fridge, but to me it’s art. It doesn’t have to be magnificent and yes, most the time it is childish (read: snickers dinosaur) but it’s what was in my head (see above: creativity) and it’s what I got out.

I love music, more the classical music than anything else. There are times when I will just put my headphones on and lay on my floor and listen to the sounds of the classical artists for hours on end. I played viola when I was in middle school, I would’ve loved to continue but I didn’t fight for it when I was in high school. One day, I will own a baby grand piano and I will learn to play it. I’d also like to learn to play the electric guitar (Guitar Hero really just doesn’t cut it for me).

I love to travel, I really discovered my love for traveling in the last year, I don’t mind traveling all by myself either, but I have decided that I really need a photographer to follow me around and take pictures. Because sometimes the pictures just aren’t as exciting if you’re not in them.

There’s so much to me that I really don’t think that I can cover it in a blog post, I don’t even think I can say that this is me in a nutshell (because that nutshell is like a box, and I don’t do boxes). I guess you’ll just have to follow me for the rest of the month so that you can learn more about me, Courtney.